Life Update: I’ve Dropped Out Of University

This is a post that I never thought I’d be writing. But here we are- as of Monday the 5th of February I have withdrawn from university. It was not an easy decision to make and has come with many repercussions but it’s a decision that I’ve made because it is beneficial for me and my health. So, I thought I’d do a post to share my decision with you all, explain why I’ve decided to do so and go through the whole process.

I have been unhappy at university for a very long time. In October when I’d only been studying there for a month I started having doubts about my course (I was studying English) and my future with the degree. I started to think that I was wasting my time, I was looking into conversion courses for after I’d graduated and other degrees to do after this one as it wasn’t opening the doors that I wanted opened. Baring in my mind I’d made the decision of what course to study over a year and a half ago when I was a completely different person and wasn’t 100% what I wanted to do.

I didn’t want to go back after Christmas, being frankly honest the only thing that really motivated me to go back was the student loan that I’d be getting. Since I went back in January my anxiety has been through the roof. Baring in mind, I hadn’t had a panic attack since last July so I was doing incredibly well with dealing with my anxiety so it was quite a shock when it came back in January and was literally crippling. I had a very bad panic attack whilst driving too uni one day, that was the moment that I realised that it really was getting bad. On the last day that I attended university I had to sit outside the room building myself up to going in because I was so anxious to do so, every single ounce of my being was telling me not to go in but I did and that was the last time that I did. I drove home that night after a hella long day, I was shaking with nerves and felt like I’d well and truly been broke, I’d had enough and I knew deep down that I’d already made my decision. Anxiety is awful, I’ve been putting off getting help for the past few months but now I’ve made the decision to leave uni for the sake of my health I know I need to seek professional help.

I think another factor that played quite a big role in it was the fact that I live at home. That definitely impacts on the social side of things which I’m not going to go into too much in this as some of the things are a bit too personal to me. I was timetabled in to be in Monday-Friday, the commute was awful although it was only an hour it absolutely killed me driving there, especially considering I didn’t want to be there in the first place. Anyway, I’m not going to go into every reason why I’ve decided to leave but those are a few.

I think if you read the post that I wrote called ‘The Truth About Starting University’ you could tell that I wasn’t feeling the positive vibes about it all and it only went down hill from there.

I’m going to write a bit about the process that I’ve been through the past two weeks of leaving uni. I told my Mum and Dad at about half 11 at night on Wednesday the 31st, it was a big shock but they have been so supportive and incredible, I’m extremely lucky to have them. I booked an appointment with someone at uni for Monday the 5th, I booked this on the Friday when I had made my mind up 100%. On the Sunday before my appointment I created a brand new CV and applied for a lot of jobs, this was incredibly exciting and put me in a more positive mindset for the appointment the next day.

So last Monday I had the appointment where I spoke to a lovely woman, I completely broke down and was a mess but she was so supportive and reassuring. The process was fairly quick and not stressful at all. I only spoke to three people and then it was done, I had officially left university! I literally just wanted to celebrate which I did the next day with my boyfriend, we went the cinemas, bowling and for a Frankie and Benny’s.

You may be wondering what I’m going to do now so I’ll explain. I’m going to get a full time job, I definitely need to improve all of my skills and gain some life experience as well as doing something that I enjoy. I’m still going to blog, 100%!! As I get a job and start working my schedule may change but I will make sure you’re all kept in the loop (make sure your following my social medias as updates will be shared there).

I actually have an interview tomorrow, please send me all of the positive vibes and luck that you have!! I really want this job, it is exactly what I see myself doing and is perfect. I’ll let you know what it is if I get the job in another life update post. I do have another opportunity in the pipe line which I’m 50/50 about and if I told you all you wouldn’t believe it but I’m not 100% yet.

Anyway I think I’ve covered all of the bases. I hope you continue to support me in this next chapter of my life, I will make sure you know exactly what’s going on when I’m able to do so.

Please leave me any questions you have about dropping out of university, whether it be about my reasons/student finance/consequences etc. I may do a Q and A style post to answer any!

Thank you so much for reading, I do hope you enjoyed it although it isn’t too enjoyable haha!

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73 Comments

  1. This is so great Mollie! It’s such a huge choice to make & im glad you’ve finally gotten to a place where you are happy! I can say that I’ve never wanted to go to Uni either, and I feel as though I’d be much like you if I were to end up going. Good look with the interview tomorrow, you’ll smash it!💗

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  2. Glad that you have done what has made you happy! I went through a similar thing when I was at college, I didn’t want to be there any more and had a difficult time getting out of it as my tutor didn’t want me to leave but it was the best decision I ever made for myself! Good luck on your job interview, I’m sure you’ll do great!🙈❤️

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  3. I just wanted to say well done for doing what’s right for you, even though it’s not an easy decision to make. I was in a similar position a few years back and ended up dropping out myself (after only five weeks too) and it was the best thing I could have done… I’m in a much better place now! Thing will definitely improve for you, even if only for being in a better state of mind. If you want to talk about anything feel free to shoot me a message on Twitter, I’m at @amandamd25 💕

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  4. This is awesome, well done!
    I also struggled with my mental health lots during university with panic attacks and anxiety.
    Putting your health before the pressures of education is such a great thing that I’m so glad more people are doing it. It’s amazing to see people’s wellbeing becoming more and more important in our society.
    Hope your interview went well and happy pancake day! 🌷

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  5. I’m so happy for you! I know exactly how you feel as I’ve been feeling the same way since I started but it’s so good to hear that it was so easy and you’re feeling a lot more positive now. I hope the job interview goes well! x

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  6. A great, honest and informative post! I actually withdrew from university for similar reasons – I was extremely unhappy there and it caused my anxiety to snowball until I had to withdraw for my own good! If you would like to contribute a reflection like this to our site, we would love to have you involved! Best of luck for your interview – Fred x

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  7. You have absolutely done the right thing. Your happiness and health is THE most important thing! I’m in my third year of university and I have an appointment with a doctor in a couple of weeks regarding anxiety, which I think I’ve been ignoring for a while. And guess what? I’m pretty sure I didn’t have it before I started uni and it has definitely got worse over the three years. People don’t realise how hard going uni can be! I’m lucky in that I love my course but if I was in your situation I would completely be doing the same thing as you have. You should be so proud that you’ve realised what is best for you and gone for it!
    Sending all the good vibes and luck for your interview! X

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  8. So sorry to hear you had to leave, but glad that you’re making a well-thought out decision and that it’s for the better (: very lucky that you have such wonderful parents to support you and help you through! Hope your journey to solid mental health goes swimmingly xoxo

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  9. My journey and feelings towards being at uni has been very wishy washy from the very beginning, you have done what is best for you and your health which is definitely the best thing!! You should be so proud for being brave and I am sending good luck and good vibes to you for your interview x

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  10. Mollie, first of all good luck with the interview. I say good for you for deciding what was best for you and your health. I went to college here in the states and if I had to do it all over again, no I wouldn’t have wasted my parents money and my time taking classes that don’t help me get through everyday life. I would have gone to work just like you’re doing . Take care of yourself first, you can always go to university if you choose to. Your health is more important than anything, always remember that. When you get the chance read my post on this , sportsandtravelblog.wordpress.com/2017/06/16 -Things-I-would-do-differently-if-I-could-speak-to-my-younger-self

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  11. Well done for putting yourself first! I’m in first year but I am 20 (nearly 21) and it’s made such a difference having a bit of life experience behind me. Most people I was in school with have left the course they were on or changed. It might never be for you and that’s okay but don’t be put off going back in the future as it makes such a difference when you are in the right place!x

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  12. I actually dropped out of grad school last year for very similar reasons as you. I totally get where you are coming from! I hope you have an amazing interview! 💕

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  13. I also dropped out of university because I didn’t enjoy my course. I found the first three months after incredibly surreal and odd, and initially I really regretted my choice, however, I’m now realising that I made the best choice for my situation, and I am starting to get used to life again. I know a lot of my friends are still in uni and hating it, so I feel blessed that I can start again. I hope your interview went well! and well done for doing what was right and not what was easy!!

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  14. I also had to leave uni for a bit, but this was due to grades and not due to mental health. But I definitely hit a low and felt depression slowly come back to me. I also didn’t live in residence when I was in first year, so I felt really alone as well. I think uni really does take a huge toll on our mental health especially since it’s such a big jump from high school to university. But for me, I’m powering through it. I found out that 3 year General Degree’s were a thing! I struggled so hard trying to keep up with Honours, but when I found out there was the option to do a General degree, it seemed like my dreams were finally possible! I hope your interview went well and that you find your dream job! You definitely don’t need to go the traditional route to live a happy and fulfilling life.

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  15. I dropped out of university when I was 18 and it was absolutely the right decision for me. I wasn’t enjoying the course I was on at all. I ended up going back to another university three years later and had the best time ever! I think its very brave to make that decision to drop out. Only you know what is best for you! Good luck with everything 🙂

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